To get the cost for all the food & drinks for these 500 kids, we have to use the RM200 given by the church and raise more money to purchase all those raw materials. For the past 3 weeks we have been making our own cup foam roses and paper flowers to sell outside the church (before & after Sunday service) and guess what? We managed to make more than RM500 from the sale of those cup foam roses and paper flowers! We made about 100+ roses and sold it for RM5 each. Thank God that the response has been really good and right now we’re actually still getting orders! =D

Last weekend was the final week that we could raise fund and we decided to sell food & drinks instead as we have basically conquered the whole church market with those cup roses. Check out our yummy poster:

The currypuff toast sandwich was prepared by mommy – and believe me, it’s super YUMMY! She took about almost a day sweating just to cut all the potatoes and my sister crying from all the onions cutting. =P THANK YOU! =D

Needless to say, last week (esp the weekend) was a super packed week. During the weekdays, we spent almost every night making the cup roses to deliver to those who have ordered it and I was busy designing the poster to promote our food sale in church that weekend. Without realising, the whole weekdays went pass just like that! Weekend was tougher. Woke up by 8am on Saturday morning to do some arrangements for Sunday's usher tasks, and that took me the whole morning. By 11.30am, I got ready & loaded all the food stuff, cutlery, sandwich maker and others into my car. Had my lunch and reached church in time to stuff all the food into the fridge and got ready to teach the kindy kids. The lesson went on to about nearly 4pm and I continued with KJC until 6pm. We did some testing on the games stalls that we are going to have on the Carnival Day by grouping the kids into a few groups and they took turns to go into different rooms to try out the various games. Looks like the carnival is going to be really fun with all those games! By 6pm, we went out to set up the tables to get ready for the food sale as the youth service starts at about 7.30pm so we wanted to have everything set up by 6.30pm and serve them dinner before they start the service. The rest of the CG came one by one with food and we ended up with so much food for sale that we were getting a little worried if we were able to finish selling all of them (basically we are the ones who would have to suffer by eating all of them if there were leftovers)! We had my mom's currfypuff sandwich selling at RM2, bihun, tomyam maggi mee & bihun (with sausage inside!) selling at only RM2 per box (additional RM1 for an egg), fried chicken with fries & wedges for RM4 and herbal drink for only RM1 (we later increased it to RM1.50 because everyone was commenting on how cheap it was! =P)! Thank God that the sales were actually pretty good, considering the fact that they are mostly youths. By 7.30pm when the service started, we still had some leftovers... In the end we decided to stay and wait until the service is over and continue selling the food for their supper... While waiting we chatted and fellowshiped with each other (I have been so tied up with my other ministries that I've missed a lot of session with my cg mates so it's catching up time!). At 10.30pm, the youths finally came out and well, I have to say that the wait was worthwhile. Amazingly we managed to finish ALL the food and we even covered the costs for all the raw materials (for both Sat & Sun food)! That means the sales on Sunday were all going to be our profit as we had already reached break even on Sat night itself. Despite being overjoyed, we had to reserve our energy for the following morning as it was going to be a long tiring day the next day. We packed up and went home to rest. By the time I reached home, it was nearly midnight and I could hardly open my eyes. Went to bed at 1am and work up at 8am the next morning to set up and got ready the 2nd batch of currypuff sandwich to sell.

By 9.30am we were already making toast bread outside the church. The sales weren't good despite the fact that we did the promotion earlier and we even sent SMS to everyone in our phone book to keep their stomach empty for breakfast. Oh well... More food for lunch then. =) We went in for the service by 11am and came out again at 12pm to get ready for the food sales. We were standing at the booth and wondering how to heat up the spaghetti sauce (somehow the portable stove exploded a little after a while so to be on the safe side we decided not to use it - we wouldn't want to explode the whole church) and then in the end I suggested to bring it down to one of the shop downstairs to ask for help. Tzes helped to carry the big pot of spaghetti downstairs while I went with him as the translator. Went to Great Mama (it's the name of the shop) and I asked the boss if they could help to heat up the sauce. She was very nice and took us the back alley behind the shop and said we could cook there. So Tzes & I stood there at the back lane of the restaurant and started stirring the sauce. It was a really funny scene becos we were dressed so nicely (Tzes was in formal shirt and I was in skirt) and we ended up cooking at the back alley. =P The boss even helped us to judge if it was hot enough and provided us a big fat pack of tissue to cover the handles of the pot as it was too hot to carry all the way up to church. Thank God Tzes made it in time to play drums for the closing service else we would have gotten into deep trouble! We started preparing our food and wow, all was swept in just a while! Both the spaghetti were a hit (Olio selling at RM6 and Bolognese selling at RM7) and the currypuff sandwiches were all sold out as well! We even had to boil and cook more spaghetti outside the church to entertain the customers! Wow... We were seriously overjoyed and we wanted to celebrate immediately but I had to rush for a meeting and some of them had meeting at 2pm so we decided to have dinner together that night to celebrate the good sales! In total, we managed to make more than RM1,200 from all the fundraising for the past 3 weeks! Wohoooooo!! Well, the number may be small for some people but it was really hardwork with lots of effort, considering the fact that we made everything ourselves - every single thing that we sell, we made it all one by one with our very own hands and sweat... So the level of satisfaction was really high. =) =) =) Great job everyone! Special thanks to Euwing who did sooooooo much for the cg even though he's not from our cg. He did most of the cup roses and helped a lot with the promotion and sales, sticking with us the whole time. THANK YOU! =D Well, the day was tiring enough but that's not the end of it. We went for Pit Stop meeting until about 3pm and went to take a look at some furnitures in town just to kill time while waiting for dinner. Michelle called and asked if we wanted to go over to SP Setia to look at the showroom of their new house so we went over. The place was beautiful, it's a 3 storey terrance house but it's not a house that I would want to live in becos I've been living in landed property my whole life and I would want to try living in a condo instead. We stayed there until about 7pm and we went to QB after that for dinner. While waiting for the rest to arrive, we walked past this furniture showroom from Arredo and fell in love with one of the L shape 3 seater sofa! We went ahead for dinner in Sakae Sushi and after dinner we went back to the showroom and decided to get the sofa. Paid the downpayment and we will be getting it in a few months' time! *YAY!* Finally we settled on a sofa that we both like. We have actually gone to a lot of furniture shops earlier and I liked a sofa that I saw in Crystal Point (we almost bought it) but Euwing hesitated after we visited the place for the 3rd time. Whatever reasons he had for hestitating, I'm glad he did becos we finally found the right sofa that BOTH of us love! Chose the colour combination and we can't wait to get it in August. =D I reached home at about 10 plus and I was so tired... Seriously tired from all the non stop activities and work from the whole week, esp in the weekend. Thank God for the strength to survive through the days and of course for the success, He deserves all the glory! =D

Hmmm... I think my title says it all... =P Haven't been logging in since December 2007 (wow, has it been really THAT long?), and so much has changed in these 18 months. I have been so packed busy with work and ministry that I hardly have time for anything else but I think it's about time that I revive my blog and update it becos a lot has happened and I want to be able to remember all of it so I'm recording everything down!

If you were to ask me to list down all the events that happened since I last blogged by sequence, I definitely won't be able to do it becos too much has changed… so I will list them all down randomly based on what I can remember. =)

First of all, my ministry which has impacted me in a HUGE way. I had to step up as one of the team lead ushers when my team lead took a break due to some personal reasons so here I am, now leading one of the usher team during Sunday service. It’s not a tough job but it’s an added responsibility. In addition to that, I was appointed as one of the 2 interns for Kids Joy Club (KJC) in Children Ministry with Bernie as our lead. Apparently it's time for the younger generation to step up and lead KJC so we are one of the "victims"... =P With all the additional responsibilities, I am suddenly fill packed with lots of tasks & work BUT I'm not complaining at all! In fact, through all these I have grown so much in Him, spiritually and mentally. With these extra responsibilities on my shoulder, I could no longer be the naive kid who just does what people ask me to do but now I have to make decisions instead. Instead of just preparing crafts & games and helping out during KJC as a background person, now I have to read bible materials, plan, prepare the lessons and teach on almost every Saturday. I have also signed up to teach tuition classes before KJC twice a month. Sometimes, I do feel like I am overloaded with too many things (and it's not including work yet!) but I know that all these are opportunities that God uses as part of the process to mould me to do more for Him in the future.

With all the stress and pressure especially from work, I was diagnosed with hyperthyroid which I found out when I did my medical check up last year. Basically hyperthyroid is:

Hyperthyroidism is a condition caused by the effects of too much thyroid hormone on tissues of the body. Although there are several different causes of hyperthyroidism, most of the symptoms that patients experience are the same regardless of the cause. Because the body's metabolism is increased, patients often feel hotter than those around them and can slowly lose weight even though they may be eating more. The weight issue is confusing sometimes since some patients actually gain weight because of an increase in their appetite. Patients with hyperthyroidism usually experience fatigue at the end of the day, but have trouble sleeping. Trembling of the hands and a hard or irregular heartbeat (called palpitations) may develop. These individuals may become irritable and easily upset. When hyperthyroidism is severe, patients can suffer shortness of breath, chest pain, and muscle weakness. Usually the symptoms of hyperthyroidism are so gradual in their onset that patients don't realize the symptoms until they become more severe. This means the symptoms may continue for weeks or months before patients fully realize that they are sick. In older people, some or all of the typical symptoms of hyperthyroidism may be absent, and the patient may just lose weight or become depressed.

And that was last year. When I checked with the doctor on why I am diagnosed with it, he said it's most probably due to stress. Assuming that it's just a minor sickness, I ignored the doctor’s advice to go for immediate medication... until beginning of this year. I went for a blood test to check the level of the thyroid as I was having lots of problems with my head (dizziness, giddiness and taking medical leave almost every 2 weeks. The worst was when I was bed ridden for almost a week due to the dizziness and I couldn’t work at all) and I wanted to find out the cause of it. I was shocked to see that it has shot up to 3 times the normal range which explains all the malfunctions in my body as thyroid apparently affects my whole body function and it is very serious if it is not treated. I had to be put on medication immediately, 2 pills and 3 times a day – for the next 1 and a half years. I was really upset but the doctor said I must take it at once else there will be a lot of side effects, including heart failure and *gasp* I might even go insane (yes, meaning I have the possibility of going crazy – the Tanjung Rambutan kind! =S) if the thyroid level continues to increase. I am not supposed to do any heavy exercise due to the heart rates and I’m not supposed to be over stressed too (how can this be possible, with the work that I’m doing now? =S). I also get upset, irritated, angry and stress for every little reasons. No matter how much I kick & struggle I knew I still have to go on medication in the end and everyone kept telling me that health comes first. So right now I’m still taking my medication obediently (well, with lesser dosage than I was prescribed to =P) but at least I’m taking it! I’m going to share a testimony in another separate entry on my thyroid condition later. ;)

I leave this big piece as the last entry becos it has the biggest impact on me for the past half year and it is also related to the previous entries that I just mentioned above. My life changed when I went out with the greatest guy ever last year. We knew each other in 2007 when we were grouped together in our church family camp but did not keep in touch after the camp. We started talking again randomly last year and the rest, is history. I will not go into details but I’m just going to say that he is one guy who completes my life and balances me out perfectly. He brightens up my life in simple ways and makes me laugh like nobody’s business without fail everyday. I appreciate him very much because he is the sweetest guy ever, and most of all he helped me a lot (and I really mean A LOT) in my ministry and with my thyroid. Without him, I will be so over stressed with the over piled work & projects which will worsen my thyroid (as mentioned by the doctor, I need to learn how to be stress free!). Thank God that he is the exact opposite from me in this way, that he is always stress free, carefree and cheerful even when it comes to critical issues. Whenever I panic or worry, he will help me ease my burdens by consoling me and spending time to help me solve the problems. Everything to him is possible and he is always making things simple which makes me feel more relaxed. We work together in KJC as a team, preparing lessons and teaching the kids in every 2 weeks. We are both each other’s personal assistants and work hand in hand in all the ministries both of us are in. And yea, I love it that he has a BIG heart for the community. We go out on Friday nights to distribute food to the street people and Saturdays to visit the old folks home & hospitals to cheer the sick (once we distributed ice creams to the old folks and they were so overjoyed! It’s such a joy to see them getting so excited over ice-creams. Hehe…). Most importantly, he has totally changed my perspective about life, that life is not all about the materials but it’s about being happy and contended with all that we have. I have changed so much in the past 10 months because of his positive attitude. =)

 When he flew off to Nepal in October for mission trip, he did something that really touched my heart. For the 10 days that he was away, he prepared 10 notes & gifts to be passed to me by either my colleague or his friends. On the first day, after I sent him off at the airport and went back to my office I was surprised to see a card on my laptop deck. That was the 1^st day. Of course, I’m not going to write the content of all the messages, cards, notes & letters received from him here throughout the 10 days becos it’s personal. ;) The next day, when I went to get my car after work to drive home, there was a little card & a new wiper on my window screen (previously I mentioned to him that my wiper is not functioning well on rainy days). =) On the 3^rd day, I received a gift box with a letter inside with 4 CDs – “The Best of Olivia” & 3 “Secret Garden” CDs. He explained why he got the CDs for me, becos that week is supposed to be very hectic for me hence the songs (that are supposed to be soothing & relaxing) are to help me de-stress after work by listening to it. Day 4 – it’s a very very sweet card with his feelings inside plus 4 movie tickets for me & friends so that we can go unwind after work (as it was a Friday!) When I presented the movie tickets at the cinema counter, I received a moo moo cow which is really cute! It’s a cow hugging a piece of pink warm blanket and you can actually take the blanket out to use and the moo moo to hug as a soft toy. In the card together with the moo moo, it says that I can use the blanket & hug the moo moo in case I’m cold in the cinema. How sweet is that? *touched* On Day 5, I was wondering how is he going to give me anything at all as it’s a Saturday and I’m all the way in BM. Well, I guess nothing is impossible for him… He actually got his friend to send it to my house. =S My sister went out to get the gift and guess what – there were 2 bridal magazines inside with a letter. My mom was so anxious becos she thought I was getting married so soon when I’m not even in a relationship - Silly her! Hahaha... Anyway, it’s nothing like that sorts. He just showed me pictures of some nice wedding venues and his brother’s wedding, that’s all. Managed to cool my mom down after that, haha! =P On Sunday, which is Day 6 – I got an envelope from Julie in church, his colleague & friend and also my churchmate. Inside the envelope, I found a letter and his car keys. Apparently he parked his car in church and his note requested me to go to his car to see what my gift is. Well, if only he said that the car key IS the gift instead… =P Just kidding! I went down and found his car. When I opened the car door, there was a Forever Friends bear hugging a big red heart waiting for me. It’s now sitting on top of my keyboard in my room. =) Day 7 – After lunch at work, I received a big box of Big Apple doughnuts with 8 durians and 4 other flavours inside. YUMMMYYY!! I love durian doughnuts, they are heaven! =D =D =D Well, he mentioned in his note that I should share it with others too so I distributed it to some of my colleagues. If only I can have all 12 for myself… =( blek! Hehehe… Okies, Day 8 – A gift box with a note & several DVDs inside, namely “License to Wed” (I finally found time to watch it only last Sat, 8 months after that =P), “Music & Lyrics”, “CJ7”, “Meet Joe Black” and “Once”… Basically all romantic comedies which we both enjoy. The purpose of the DVDs are to entertain me in case I’m bored but well, I didn’t have time to watch it all so right now I have yet to watch any except for one last Sat. Day 9 – I received a call from the security post that there’s a cake waiting for me outside and they are not allowed to come in to my building, so I went out and there’s one whole big Secret Recipe cake waiting for me and it’s my favourite Mango Delight! =D YUMMY YUMMY! In his card, he mentioned that he is showering me with so much food becos I’m after all, a food freak! Yes, I love eating and it’s one of top hobbies. =P I distributed it to my colleagues and gave some to Michelle & MS after work as well. Thank you SO much! Last Day (Day 10) – It’s a nice & simple card that says he will be back in a couple of hours, he hopes that I can pick him up at the airport that night and in the card he dedicated Tommy Page’s “You Are My Everything” song to me. We heard this song together in the car before and he mentioned that it expresses his feelings very well in that song. And that was the 10 very special & meaningful days while he was away touching lives in Nepal. I am so touched by his gestures and needless to say, I went to pick him up at the airport that night after work – I was so glad he’s back becos we don’t need to communicate through cards and gifts anymore although I love the surprises! =P =) Thank you, dear! We finally got together officially on 27^th Nov 2008, and I extracted the below entry from his blog on how we got together on this special day (erm, it’s too long to write and since he has already has it written down, I might as well take it from there! =P)

The Proposal - Part 1 (**Let me first clarify that this is NOT a marriage proposal! =P)

This entry is not something I would normally put up on the Internet but because it's such a significant event, I have to put it down in words, for memories sake, and for me to share my great experience to all of you reading this... :)

Initially, I thought of something simple but because she's someone so special, she deserves something unforgettable! So, lotsa thoughts were put into planning this, which requires lotsa time and effort. It has to be a special day, so I planned for a beautiful morning, and a lovely night. For the morning, I want her to be greeted in the most lovely and yet, surprising manner. To do that, I decided to decorate her cube. For the night, it's obvious that since I'm gonna pop the question, it has to be a place that is romantic. Like duh? :P

It all started with the preparation. Lunches after lunches, I skipped them, just to go off to the shopping malls to get all the necessary. So, what's on my list?

For the morning, since I wanted to decorate her cube, I went to get a vase. Guess what! I never knew vases can cost up to hundreds of Ringgit! Okay, I obviously didn't spend so much but still, it was shocking! Instead I spent lotsa time searching for an affordable one, and finally found it deep in the corners of Jusco, in Queensbay Mall. Why the vase? Here goes... I went down to the florist and left my vase there with instructions for the lady to fill it with roses, both red and white, and those little flowers (what are those called?). I also asked for a few stalks too, which I'll explain why later.

Next item was a pillow. She actually has a pillow on her seat at her cube already, but dear, I hope you don't mind me saying this, that gold pillow is not pretty, and it doesn't match you, a beautiful girl ;) So I thought of replacing it and I searched high and low for a nice, red, heart-shaped pillow but I just can't find it, neither in Queensbay Mall nor Gurney Plaza. And when I stumbled upon it on my second walkabout in Queensbay Mall, I found the perfect heart! But guess what, it's a decorative item in one of the shops! I begged them to sell it to me but they just won't! They said they got it in Jusco sometime last year, and I went another round in Jusco, and I just can't find it! Argh! Hopes dashed, I settled for a nice little red but squarish pillow.

Other decoratives include a little Christmas tree, since Christmas is around the corner. Oh, and there was a Forever Friends bear too :D It's one that has a Christmas cap and a little gift on its lap. It's a very cute one, for the cute girl I'm giving to! ;)

The day has come, well, not exactly that day but the eve of it, since I need to make sure the décor is there when she comes in to work the next morning. So, I went to the florist, grab the flowers and vase and brought it home, leaving the fan turned on to ensure the flower doesn't die when I'm out. I went back to work to pick her up for dinner at Pekaka Cafe with the others. Just as she went off to order her food, I "stole" her Intel badge. I had to cause I needed the access to her building, else I can't get to her cube.

The mission started the moment I dropped her off at her car in Intel, which was about 11pm already. I went straight home to get the vase and flowers, and then to the restaurant (I'll explain more later), and back to Intel. *phew* Putting on her badge, I quietly walked into the Intel premise. Bad news was, the badge didn't work! I can't get in! Argh! I went back to my car, thinking what I should do. Then I used my badge and go in instead, and it failed again! The vase and the luggage bag, yes, I used a luggage bag to store all the other stuff, were already at the entrance of her building. I thought to myself, okay, one last time, with her badge... Marched back to my car, grabbed her badge and went in again. By now, the guards on duty must be very suspicious of me already! As I walked for that few minutes to her building from my car, I kept praying. Guess what... It still failed! Ahh! I was lost, don't know what to do. The last thing that came to my mind was to be honest with the guards and asked them to let me in. And I did just that... It's a do-or-die mission, so I just had to ask them! I told them I just wanna leave some things on my girlfriend's cube... They obviously didn't allow! I begged non-stop, and soon, they asked me to call the Control Room, which I did and had to give me ID too. By now, it was already 45 mins past the time I started begging them and eventually, they allowed! Phew! Close call! Thank God! One of the guards had to accompany me in, just to make sure I do what I said I would.

At her cube, I put the vase with flowers, right behind her laptop docking station. Well, I brought some ribbons, hoping to tie around it but failed and I don't exactly like to work with someone just behind me, rushing me. Then I put on the Christmas tree on the right side of the station and I removed that not-so-pretty pillow and put mine on her chair. At last, I took a few stalks of red and white roses that I bought earlier, peel off the petals and sprinkled them all over the table. Perfect! Lastly, I left the Forever Friends bear on her chair, with the pillow :)

Phew, all done and that actually took 30mins plus, instead of just a few minutes, which I told the guards. Just as I was to leave, the Control Room called the guard who was with me and asked why was I taking such a long time. Just in time!

It was almost 2am when I left Intel. What a night! Thank God all still went well! Just needed more patience and determination. Don't give up so easily! Persevere till you reach your goal! And mine is to ensure a beautiful morning for my dearest Win Nee :)

As for the night, well, I reserved a table for two at Feringgi Garden. It's a beautiful place, and it's a place we both wanted to go months back. And of course, dim lights, nice music, just a romantic place.

From the same florist, I reserved a few stalks of red and white roses. From another florist, I asked them to deliver a bouquet of a dozen of roses and a dozen of Ferrero Rocher, since she likes chocs lots! :P

Ah, being the cheapo me, I bought a bottle of sparkling juice from Jusco. Well, actually, it's not exactly me being cheapo, but it's because the two of us don't drink alcohol, and she loves sparkling juice! ;)

Also, I burnt two copies of an audio CD with just Canon in D, one of which is a backup. You'll always need backups in cases like this!

Ah, what else is left? ...the most important thing, of course. It can't be a proposal without a ring, right? :D Searching for it high and low, I finally decided on one that I found in Gurney Plaza. It's just a simple one, but a really nice one, with a diamond, of course ;) It's the perfect one, and I was sure she would love it!

Okay, night has fallen, and we started out journey in a jam. Yes, it was raining. It took us 45 minutes to get there, and we had to rush back by 10pm for a birthday celebration. It all didn't seem too good at the start, but it worked out just as planned :)

We arrived, and headed straight to the table I booked the night before. I was at the restaurant the night before (the night just before I went into Intel to decorate her cube), just so I can drop the sparkling juice, book a nice table, and tell the waiters and waitresses what to do. I also wanted to have a "feel" of what's going to happen tomorrow, just so all will work out according to plan.

The table was well decorated, with a special white cloth covering it, with red and white roses spread across the table, and of course, a candle light flickering as we spend a wonderful time, right next to a beautiful Christmas tree. The environment was just great, dimmed lights, slow lovely music, and a drizzling wet night to make it so very cozy!

Dinner served, and hoping that the night would last forever, but knowing that I have a birthday celebration to attend to, I hurriedly asked for an excuse to go to the washroom, which I didn't, but instead, I went to the waitress who received the flowers from the florist. I also dropped her the CD, and instructed her to play Canon in D.

As the music started, I asked her to increase the volume, and I walked to my darling with the bouquet of flowers on one hand, and the ring on the other. As I stopped right next to her, she was already smiling at the flowers. I went down on one knee, and nervously, I asked her the question. She was all smiles, and I couldn't believe my ears when she said, "Yes, yes, okay, get up..." :) Hehe, she's one shy girl, and the other customers all around us clapped, and congratulated us! :D But wait, I wasn't up yet, cause only then, I slipped the ring onto her finger. Wow! It sure was a moment to remember! :D As the music continues, we took photos of this memorable moment! Finally, it was done! :D

Thank God all went smoothly, and thank God it was a YES from her! She's been an amazing blessing ever since, and I can't tell you how much she has helped me in all ways; my life, my walk with Him, my ministry, my work, and just about every area of my life! Thank God for this angel that You've sent me, Lord! It's such a miraculous gift, and surely, it's only by Your grace that I have received this! :D

November 27th 2008, and it is, indeed, still a very significant date for us, the day we turned from friends, to great friends, committing ourselves to marriage, well, almost, as I'll leave that for The Proposal - Part 2 :)

Edit: A few were confused with this entry :P Well, the above is my proposal to Win Nee to ask her to be my girlfriend, not wife, not just yet ;) ...and by that saying we're committing ourselves to marriage, it actually means that our end goal, from this, would be, hopefully, and almost, an eventual marriage :)

Well, I do have a lot more to share but I guess I’ll save it for the next entry as this entry is getting tooooo long! I just want to end with a note, that I’m so thankful for the experiences and changes that God put me through for the past 10 months. I’m someone who resists change and I like everything to be the same old boring way so it’s always a huge impact on me when anything changes at all. Perhaps some of the times I might not understand why He wants to let me go through the rough patches and those ups & downs but at the end of the day, I realize that it’s all for me to grow & learn. I’ve been so blessed to have everything I wanted since I was young and have never gone through test or hardship but for the past year He has made me a wiser, better & more mature person today. Right now, He has blessed me with a wonderful, loving guy who has survived the ups & downs with me – with my medical condition and work stress, he stuck to me through those tough times and I know he is definitely God sent to help me fulfill His purpose on earth. Thank you Lord for letting me go through the test, not alone but with a helper that you have provided. I am so ever blessed! =D